Archive for February, 2008

Bittersweet

“When I think about love, it reminds me of dark chocolate…

It has been about 5 months since I moved out here to Arizona, feeling called that God led me to this place. Starting full time ministry with the Navigators can be described by no better word than “stretching” – especially in the area of relationships: Learning to “embrace the awakardness”- as you encounter different people from yourself, committing to keep in touch with old friends that are far away, and also finding out that the hardest friendships are the ones God uses to change you the most.

Someone asked me recently “what is your least favorite thing about being on EDGE Corps (Trans. = 1st year staff with Navs.) ?”

I found myself thinking about what I had told people back over winter break. My only answer was: The hardest things have been the best things. And it is still very true of this semester. It seems weird but everything from getting robbed, to being stuck in logistical nightmares, to crying with a student who you can’t do anything for but pray may seem on the outside not very pretty things. And you’re right, I wouldn’t ask for them, because on the one hand they make me feel like I am incompetent. But on the other hand, those things are where I have found God the most. These are the times I saw God’s grace so clearly and the miracles which I can attest to but not take credit for.

Recently I am reminded that the best & the hardest being especially true about relationships with people, because I find that people are normally what make a place either just live-able or truly love-able. There are times when life carries you away from those you care about. And moving away is of course difficult, but then to embrace the newness and all that God has in store for your life is exciting … and necessary.

So all this makes me think of how much I miss my home in Virginia and I often think of those of you with whom I have lost touch. But I hold you in my heart and I know that God is with you as he is here with me.

Happy Valentines All! – This is my love song to Jesus : Psalm 73:23-26

“Yet I am always with you; you hold me by my right hand. You guide me with your counsel, and afterward you will take me into glory. Whom have I in heaven but you? And earth has nothing I desire besides you. My heart and my flesh my fail, but God, [you are] the strength of my heart and my portion forever.”

… And If I were to say life had a taste, it would be bitter sweet. “

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