Archive for January, 2008

Loss

Things haven’t been easy, but in the midst of all the hard things His Joy has been constant. And when I choose to let it, I see glimpses of it shine in the midst of all the darkness.

The hard reality of where I was living hit us again yesterday when I came home around noon and found my roommates standing outside our house with police cars parked out in front. It was a burglary and the thieves came in the span of the 45 mins that my roommates had been gone to deliver something to a neighbor. They stole 3 labtops and a purse that belonged to my roommate. My labtop was among the ones stolen. :*(

After the initial shock and feeling the need to be home with one another, we girls felt we had a lot to be thankful for. It was definitely a reminder that the things that we own don’t last (pictures, music, papers… etc), and Phil. 3:7 seems more real to me than ever before. And we were also made aware of how blessed we were to have one another unharmed and safe.

Thankfully, the house of guys from our ministry live down the street and came and fixed the door that was busted open. They took a half a day to replace almost the entire door frame, locks and doorbell. Their presence was a blessing and we also felt well taken care of by neighbors and the other staff. – Thank you guys!

It is the weirdest timing, but I was telling Esther the other day that I’ve been able to finding joy again in praising God with the guitar. It’s been over a year since I tasted the sweetness of jamming before the Lord, just him and me. A psalm that continues to be a sweet reminder has been …

“You will not fear the terror of the night, nor the arrow that flies by day, nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness, nor the plague that destroys at midday… For He will command his angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways.” -Psalm 91: 8-9, 11

~ Thank you all for your prayers and your concern for me and those here. 🙂

 

Undeserving

So I just got back from a prayer retreat in Pine Valley, CA and it was amAzing, and I wish some others could have joined me. 😦 (the driving was not so fun) But I have to say I’ve never felt the presence of God so sweetly and such openness with a group of almost all strangers. I also had the joy of sharing a place with Ann P.!!! 🙂

Ann & Me

Here is a picture of us in our cottage at the conference center. Neither of us expected to be given such a posh place to stay. It was complete with a bedroom, loft area, porch, kitchen, living room and bath. 🙂 We were in awe and didn’t feel like we deserved to stay there, especially since the other housing did not seem to compare.

During the retreat, I continued to be reminded of what God’s love in our lives looks like. It came to my attention that I easily forget the reality that God’s love in my life is a gift. And it almost came like a surprise to me. Like the large cottage that we didn’t do anything to deserve. I find a lot of times to busy dwelling on the thought, “I don’t deserve this nice place,” or not even recognize that “this is a nice place and I’ve been invited to come in.”

I think this can be how I choose not to abide in God’s love. But it was sweet to be reminded that His love can be new and He wants us to enjoy Him in the “newness” of it. And this verse came to mind:

“Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.” – Lamentations 3:22-23